I have been living out of my suitcase since April. I don’t have a job. Most of my friends are in a country that seems a world away from here. I have said more good-byes than I can count in the last 3 months. The hellos have been much less infrequent. So here I wait.
We have all been there…The in-between. The mourning of what was, the longing for what is next. Waiting for the unknown in the unknown. When there is nothing familiar to grasp and normal is non-existent. There are the endings and the promises of something new.
But before the renewal there is the place where I now find myself. It has been a difficult place, but there is sweetness here as well. My identity can no longer be found in what I do, what job I have, what I am good at or even my ability to function in a comfortable routine. I find myself looking around constantly for something to prove that I can contribute something to this world. Through it all God has been speaking such truth over my life and it is in this place that I can hear it clearly.
So here to all of you who also find themselves in this crazy and uncharted place of transition. The desert, the flood, the in-between.
Now is the time to draw close to the Lord, because He is all we have.
Hold on the the promises and realize that your faith is enough. That you are enough.
It can be a lonely time, it can be a time of rest. It can be a time to let go of the details and to purposely not get caught up in life…and it is a time that you need. It is a time that is temporary.
You belong to Him and it is He who gives you purpose. This is a time when you are His without the world pushing and pulling for your attention.
This is a time where we are stripped of everything but Him. He is enough in our weaknesses and completes our inefficiencies.
Hold on to His plan, for it is good.
Remember that He is the God of the past and what He has already done. Remember He is the God of the future and He is there waiting for you. Remember that He is the God of the in-between and it is there He will meet you.
Quick Update
I am currently attending language school in Antigua, Guatemala and will be here for a total of 10 weeks. I am learning more that I thought possible to retain, but it has been a sweet time of study and exploring this beautiful country.
In September, I will return to the states for a week or two and hopefully be moving to Granada, Nicaragua full time after that!
I am currently building a support team and need only $248 more in monthly support before I can buy my plane ticket and $414 in monthly support before I am fully funded.
If you would like to join my team, please let me know or click the “donate” button on this page. Thank you for all your prayers and support!
Caitlin, thank you for sharing your heart so candidly. God has given you a gift with the pen my dear! Your words resonate with truth, even though I personally am not in that ” in between” spot. Eventually we all will be. So wisely I want to cling to the ONE who holds our future. Keep on, keep on, Jesus will continue to direct your steps.( Prov. 3; 5-6) You go girl!
Hugs your wonderful way, Cindi
Great thoughts Caitlin. I am so excited to have you here with us in Granada soon!
I love you and you and your words are beautiful!! Can’t wait to see you in just a few days!
You are faithful and you have been faithful. And He, of course, is faithful always 🙂 You are amazing and incredible, my amiga 🙂 🙂
Thank you Caitlin for your encouraging words. I too find myself in the “in-between”…watching, waiting and holding on to Him alone. It’s truly bittersweet. We’ve both walked with Him enough to know this time will not last and if we are wise we will cherish each moment of it instead of wishing it away. For it produces it’s own sweet fruit, that in reflection we are able to see this “in-between” as a true gift from Him. Miss you friend…Pam